I am in pain
Is this a sign
For me to give up
Surrender my life
To the hands of god
Who will decide
Where i should go
Heaven or hell
My heart throbs
My hands quake
My eyes are dry
My head is empty
Is this my life
Forever and more
To live in this eternal pain
Which i didn't ask for
Did i commit a sin
Is this my punishment
What have i done
Someone tell me
I plead you god
End this pain or end me
My life
Is in your hand
This is a poem that I wrote last year at 4 AM when the pain is so intense, I couldn't sleep. As I was writing this, the pain grew and grew to the point where I can't even breathe. But as hopeless as this poem may have ended, I am still proud of myself that I had managed to live all the way till today despite the challenges thrown at me. And if you're reading this, I'm proud of you for making it to this moment as well :) (P.S. this is my first post on the forum)