Sounds like a movie title right? To me it sounds like a movie where someone loves Christmas so much it becomes a condition. š I donāt know but I wish that was my condition and not the list I actually have. (Anyone seen Wonder Woman yet? Get it..wish... anyways.)
Chronic Christmas for me describes my holiday to a T. Days leading up to Christmas Iām starting to feel pain in my usual way. I start to feel like Iām getting the flu in my usual way, body ache, after body ache, after body ache. I start to get my usual headache and migraine pain. I start to feel even more fatigued THAN my usual. I start to feel new pain and symptoms. Iām fighting.
During the Christmas Holiday itself, Iām in agony. Pain so bad I am crying when Iām alone and dying inside, holding my tears from falling when Iām in front of my family. Iām agitated and becoming less fun to be around. I slept both days. I promised my kids Iād sleep for 1 hour but it ended up being 4-5 Christmas Day. šMaking them restless because they want to spend time with Mom as Iām pushing back and promising them āin a bitā āin a little bitā āmoms hurting right now babies, maybe later.ā My poor husband is left alone with the kids trying to make up for Mommy being incapacitated and entertaining them because well letās face it, someone has to be the present parent during this time. š Heās going back and forth checking on me and tending to his babies. When I am up, Iām playing as much as possible and trying to say yes to everything as they just want to be with us/ Me. Sounds so Merry and Bright huh.
Christmas usually comes with its pains. The pain of wanting to create and bake and fighting to try and finish fun things together. The pain of ailments sneaking up and saying āMerry Christmas you filthy animal!ā As it wakes me and āA Happy New Yearā as it follows me around for the day. The pain of being a failure and ruining Christmas even more so for my little family.
The Holidays are hard, for so many..and in so many different ways. I just wanted to share what it is like being Chronically Ill and flaring on Christmas.
(I have also spent my daughters first Christmas in the hospital due to my gut flares. Worst Holiday Ever! My poor husband spent a few days alone with our newborn baby. šš)
My Chronic Christmas.š
@thechronicallyillqueen
I am not a Christmas fan for so many reasons, My Chronic Christmas I saw that and when u said movie title Iām picturing a comedy about medical marijuana or something lol.
I wonāt put my body through dealing with extra stress and anxiety that will make my conditions flare up bc I cannot sit there as Iām so overstimulated by everything I will stutter when I try to talk or Iām trying to cut up my food clenching my fork and knife trying to pull that off smoothly without looks. No thank you not gonna put myself through that. I either have my husband cut my food or I use kitchen scissors which any sharp tools are not recommendedā¦