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Untrustworthy

You ever look at a cup and think about whether or not you can handle the weight of it? Or handle the movement of using the cup properly so you can take a drink from it? I’m sure the average answer is NO. Why would you need to think about holding a cup? You normally don’t. You just know you want a drink and your body moves as directed right?

For me..it’s not that simple. My life and the everyday tasks it takes to simply LIVE are extremely painful for me.

You don’t realize how basic and easy these things are until it’s not anymore. I never imagined not being able to hold a cup. A cup. Something I’ve been using since I was what a year and now at 30 yrs old I’m barely able to live my life like a “normal” person. Life has changed for me and I have to adapt but I’m slowly feeling like I’m loosing myself. I stood there this morning, looking at my cup saddened by my new reality. This is what’s its like living with Fibromyalgia, Arthritis and Myofascial Pain Syndrome. I cannot trust my own hand/arm strength to even give myself something to drink. My OWN body is UNTRUSTWORTHY. Imagine living your life like that. I am living it and I still can’t wrap my head around it. This is Chronic Illness.



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